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May 29, 2009

Thanks for everything

As I look back on this past year I am grateful, sorrowful and somewhat more at peace. Life has a funny way sometimes of all working it's self out no matter our hurts, feelings, decisions and actions towards others.

I continue to grow in my faith and trust in Him, ALWAYS---There is nothihg I can't endure knowing God is near me, his LOVE surrounds me. I think of Him daily, but it's still very hard for me to share Him with others...I am surrounded by so many that do not believe or share my faith. My thoughts are not always kind nor the words that escape my lips and so I continue to ask for forgiveness and I continue to pray for all whom I hold near and dear to me.

"The seed is the word of God. Those along the path are the ones who hear, and then the devil comes and takes away the word from their hearts, so that they may not believe and be saved. Those on the rock are the ones who receive the word with joy when they hear it, but they have no root. They believe for a while, but in the time of testing they fall away. The seed that fell among thorns stands for those who hear, but as they go on their way they are choked by life's worries, riches and pleasures, and they do not mature. But the seed on good soil stands for those with a noble and good heart, who hear the word, retain it, and by persevering produce a crop."
:~ Luke 8: 11-15 :~

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May 13, 2009

Chaos ?

is only the half of it, maybe just a quarter of it. It's been so interesting to me lately how some of us are thinking about the state of the world these days. Most of us are just disgusted with our government, politicians, big corporations and the greed of it all. Some of us don't give it much thought at all, "it'll all get better in a few years...we just have to ride it out." The younger generation, say 15-21, don't really have a clue about anything that is going on. They probably don't even listen to the news every night. (Can't say as I blame them.)

I don't like listening to it, but I do find myself catching things here and there...the killing, the stealing, the drugs and war. Father's maiming their families, mother's drowning their children -- guns -- Our country's economy is in the toilet and all the bail outs in the world, aren't going to change that. Greed has overpowered, the devil is certainly in control of this world...

Our government is not going to dominate us or any other world power. They may try, they will fail, miserably.

The state of the world is in a very very sad situation. Nothing improves, our environment suffers as well. Bats by the thousands are dying, the honey bee as well. Mad Cow disease, swine and bird flu, cancer is on the rise as well as all of these scary and damaging auto immune disorders. Our health care is out of control when one hospitalization and a few tests will cost many thousands of dollars. Medicare and Medicaid are broke, private health insurance is outrageously expensive...but without it one could lose their home and if they lose their job they lose medical and their home.

People don't seem to stop and think about the cost of things. They complain, and rightly so, about the state of things, but doesn't everyone just want to be a millionare today? Doesn't everyone want to make $90 an hour and do little to earn that wage?

Our greed has taken us to a point of no return. I do not or cannot believe that our government or any other super world power will fix this for us.

Freedom of choice, our will, our determination to have things the way "we" want them and not the way they should be and so, here we are...

I pray to our dear Lord and Saviour daily. I accept Him and do my best to follow his ways. Do I worry about the world and it's state? Of course I do. I have so many loved ones that are not saved nor believe and I fear for them, but I continue to pray because whatever in the world is going on it is NOT good. It is not going to get better, maybe for a short term, but long term it is not, not until our Lord comes again and he is...there is HOPE.

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
[2Peter 3:9]

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May 10, 2009

Mother's Day

I should be at church this morning, but lately, it doesn't feel very welcoming there. Never has really. I attend a church where I really like the pastor and LOVE his sermons, but the congregation...that's another story. The "people" are NOT very friendly. They will walk right past you and not even make eye contact or smile. You go to say hello and when they don't even look at you passing by, it makes you not want to even speak first. Not all are like this, but quite a few. I've been a member at this church for several years now and attend services whenever I can, as I work every other weekend and some weekends we have plans to do things as my husband is not a believer or church goer. I got up this morning thinking I would go and then I talked myself out of it.

So I pray Lord that I can push this "worry" out of my mind and go to church with a happy heart and not let the ones who "snub" me bother me as I know it is you I am worshipping and not what others think of me or don't think of me or whatever it is they feel behaving in that way means...

And I thank you dear Lord for allowing a wonderful day yesterday with my mother. Putting aside our differences and hurts to get together and spend the day. We had good conversation, a nice lunch and enjoyed buying flowers in the rain!

I thank you Lord for these blessings and I continue to pray for understanding among us, peace and spiritual growth.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

~I Corinthians 13:4-7

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May 05, 2009

Hurts

Give me strength Heavenly Father to understand others, giving them understanding and grace for we are all different and yet very much the same. I pray for your healing in my relationships in this life. Hurts, feelings of regret and bitterness I harbor towards those I love dearly. I pray for understanding and a peacefulness. Forgive me Father for finding faults and my own stubborness and choice to distance myself. I pray dear Lord for rest, understanding and forgiveness.

I thank you Dear Lord for your love and guidance and I will continue to honor you and give you the glory for all that I have in this world, your blessing on me, my life and family. I pray for the continued safety of my children, my husband, our health and all we have to give.

Amen.

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions - it is by grace you have been saved.

~ Ephesians 2:4-5

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