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July 09, 2005
Closer to him
I sit and ponder tonight what has brought me closer to God because I do feel so much closer to him. Lately I have had to deal with some pretty awful things that have happened in this life. Some personal, others not so personal, but indirectly, they have affected me.
I often find myself thinking about things, life, people, the actions of others, why some people act the way they do, treat others the way they do, hold onto anger and hatred and sorrow the way they do.
I wonder why we do this? I wonder what makes us feel the need to do this? Listen to the news, any night of the week, hear about what's happening in our world, the tragedy, the suffering, the loss of lives, famine, disaster, bombings, murder and the list goes on and on. To me there is more than a fair share of ugliness in the world and I truly don't believe this is how it is suppose to be or should be.
I wonder if it's our hearts that get broken somewhere along the way or maybe our spirit that makes us act so. I think more though, that it is the evil in the world that has been there since the beginning of time. It fuels us, it intrigues us it makes us ugly and so I find myself praying more, listening to people more without interuption, I find the good in things that use to make me sour and I try to feel what others are feeling, understand it and accept it.
Feeling closer to the Lord has brought me a lot of inner peace, peace I have never felt before. I feel stronger and wiser and more able to face the days. I am not so quick to anger or find fault and when I feel these twinges poking, prodding, trying to make their way through, I simply stop, take a deep breath and say a prayer...
Becoming closer to him has given me the ability to do this and I am thankful for that change in me!
~ Come near go God and he will come near to you. ~
~:james 4:8:~
Posted by tracey at July 9, 2005 10:54 PM